i think of you .. but you got him ..

she admit it in front of me already ...
last time i dont dare to believe it ...
now i do ...
hope she's happy with him ...
i wish them ...
friends ?
love ?
losing everything ...
moody ...
oh yaa ...
i cant decide and change who she will love ...

Tough days ..

sick already ..
lols ..
high fever and flu ...
damn it ...
cant even sleep well ...
lols ..
haiz ...
all the girls i loved be4 ..
now together will my best buds and my enemy ...
broken hearts ..
healing ?
or worse ...
i thought i am already fine ..
but end up now ..
heart broken ... lols ...
this is why i dont believe and trust love exist ...
haha
awww ...
pity ...
lonely life ..
lols ..
eng kai ...
MAX KHAW ..
YOU DESERVE THIS ALL ...

林峰&泳儿 - 明天以后(粤)

曲/词：伍仲衡/冯颖琪
改编词：林若宁



泳:曾流行情歌虽则都继续播
可惜今天无缘一起高歌一趟
唱 没结果 再合唱亦没结果

林:明明以前是我傻 求求你姑息我
填词人替我写出的痛楚
期望你开口唱吧 合唱歌那可得我

泳:当初你抛开我 (林:我独唱一次“认错”)
泳:你为何麻木地高歌(林:唱下去不理为何)
合:消失的激情还要热播
谁人仍然是你记住的一个

泳:失去的恋爱难以勉强
林:开一句声 听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
林:日后留恋你的声线
泳:恐怕未放下 明日更不堪设想(林:而我不堪设想)
合:一千句 亲爱的 恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
林:我亦无办法得到见谅
泳:忘掉我声音以后别惆怅(林:沉默一刻我在惆怅)
合:始终无法合唱

林:祈求回头亦太难 如何唱多一晚
无人饶恕我比悲歌更惨
泳:其实你分手以后 这一天已心淡
林:当初你 抛开我 我独唱一次“认错”
泳:你为何麻木地高歌
合:消失的激情还要热播
谁人仍然是你记住的一个

泳:失去的恋爱难以勉强
林:开一句声 听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
林:日后留恋你的声线
泳:恐怕未放下 明日更不堪设想(林:而我不堪设想)
合:一千句 亲爱的 恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
林:我亦无办法得到见谅
泳:忘掉我声音以后别惆怅(林:沉默一刻我在惆怅)
合:始终无法合唱

泳:你要试着放低我
林:我怕我以后还是唱没结果(泳:已是结果)
合:以后得一个...

泳:失去的恋爱难以勉强
林:开一句声 听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
林:日后留恋你的声线
泳:恐怕未放下 明日更不堪设想(林:而我不堪设想)
合:一千句 亲爱的 恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
林:我亦无办法得到见谅
泳:忘掉我声音以后别惆怅(林:沉默一刻我在惆怅)
合:始终无法合唱

haiz ...

李圣杰-痴心绝对

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味
你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你做任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

.....

你好吗 - 李玖哲/周笔畅

温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点
多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑的那么甜
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
温柔的缠绵我也放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点
我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗
我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

i guess this song suits us better ~

Jesse Mccartney - It's Over


We’ve run out of words we’ve run out of time
We’ve run out of reasons, really why we together?
We both know it’s over baby bottom line,
It’s best we don’t even talk at all.
Don’t call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough, I don’t need to hear your voice on my messages
Let’s just call it quits it’s probably better so if
I’m not returning your calls its cause

Cause I’m not coming back, I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby, your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile, every time you dialed
Cause it’s over,
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ 7 don’t wanna hear your messages, messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it’s over,
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages don’t wanna know where you been
Baby, cause it’s over
I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
Still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can’t even remember how long it’s been
When your troubles stayed & occupied
Oh, ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need is another episode keep conversations short and sweet because
Cause I’m not coming back, I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby, your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile, every time you dialed
Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ 7 don’t wanna hear your messages, messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
Cause baby, it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages don’t wanna know where you been
Baby cause it’s over
You know that it’s over when the burnin’ & the yearnin’
inside your heart, ain’t there anymore
And you know that you’re through,
When she don’t do to you & move you like the way she moved you before
And you wanna pull her close,
But your heart has froze,
You kiss her but her eyes don’t close
Then she goes,
I love your heart forever and it hurts you but you know that it’s better
Girl you know it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ 7 don’t wanna hear your messages, messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin messages don’t wanna know where you been
Baby, cause it’s over

Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ 7 don’t wanna hear your messages, messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t be callin’ leavin’ messages don’t wanna know where you been
Baby cause it’s over

Love ?

today very tension
she cried in front of me .
i did scared .
dont know why .
haiz .
then saw her fs .
kinda hurt .
but i cant have any feeling anymore .
i did regret i scolded her in the phone !
regret also no use
just can hope her to be happy .
ya . i guess this is a great way for both of us .
hmmm . pmr just 2 days ahead .
cant think too much anymore .
study come first .
saw her fs
i become speechless .
she found her true love .
i already found my ?
did i ?
i still in a blur situation .
so blur .
love ?
i still dont know yet . what's love ?
i did love before twice .
but no one willing to appreciate me .
sometime i guess single is better for me .
but i think about her .
i must be good to her .
she loves me . she said .
today really many things happened .
i really dont know what to do that time .
i scared till became very blur and stupid .
haiz .
almost cried just now.
now only i know she is also important in my life
i guess ?
i guess i will be better in time .
i will be learning to love again .
love again ?
i don't know what to do .
i guess time will decide for me .
i regret many things .
but i don't wish another ppl to know .
i can live in my own world. sweats !
but qian i must care her feelings .
i guess i will love her .

Depression

she prefers boys who are good looking ~
she prefers boys who can always accompany her .
she prefers boys who can always hang out with her .
she prefers boys that are better than me .
she prefers boys who can make her feel safe .

she wants her boyfriend to be but i fail to do .
she just want her boyfriend to be good looking .
the boy suits her well .
i dont have any sadness or depression ,
i will repect her decision that break with me and together with him .
i will wont disturb her anymore .
she dont even take me as friend .
i dont wan to know it
i want to die heart on her .
she made me cant concentrate on many things
at school , friends can make me forget everything she did it to me .
she doesnt want my love ,
she doesnt want my care ,
she just push me away and sweet with another guy .

WHAT"S BROTHER ?
IMPOSSIBLE ?
what's this word means ?
she said before ,
but she still prefers him .
she treat me cool .
because she knows than if she msg with me .
that guy will be jealous .
but i also dont want this kind of reply .
so annoying .
like treating me as enemy .
then i prefer dont msg her anymore .
let her be what she want to be .
i not her anyone
so I DONT CARE !
i guess i dont have feeling to her anymore .
after i heard her things
i felt nothing .
is that good for me ?
really ?
i guess many of my friends willl argee this .
my phone had been confiscated .
because my cousin .
i wanted to help her .
i take her as a cousin very seriously
but so suprise that she dont even care .
that was quite shock .
the girl i loved before .
she taught me something new
althought she break me
but i learned that love must choose the one that suit u most .
i cant be so direct .
cant simply put feeling to a girl .
i guess i needed to think properly
and know the girl well first .
only decide .
ya .
cant be childish anymore .
many ppl will worried .
PMR coming .
i hope that i can do it well .
i cant be depress anymore
made me cant concentrate well .
kinda regret that my attitude and the way i do things
very direct
must change .
love is totally unfair .
but now i dont need it yet .
i still 15 years old .
i wont simply put feeling to a girl anymore .
hurted twice .
i cant be that foolish anymore .

so go on girl .
i will be fine without you in my life !
i mean it
appreciate what you have girl ~
love to me , in my life
is already meaningless .
now i dont want to love anyone anymore !
after my pmr
i will only choose .
i wont be so immature
to go and hit a guy or what .
i will just take as gave the guy a present .
rape it with a ribbon and give her to him .
i dont need her anymore .
i just need friends
friends in my life is ENOUGH already .
now she in riding somebody else car .
lols .
what should i care .
she not my who also .
someone touched my fs before .
i know who is it .
but fine i also dont want to msg her .

now she hates me i think will be better for both of us
let her thinks i'm not a good guy better still
let her thinks i'm just a guy that want faces
let her thinks i'm a bad person ,
i guess like this is better for me and her .

depression ?
sadness ?
moody ?
scare ?
no more !

learning to love again .
hope it happens

go on girl .

Go On Girl

Oooh... ooohh
Ooooohh...
Verse 1:I can't get her back, butI don't want her back, IRealized that,She don't know how to actNever been a dumb dudeNo I'm not denseI just had a slight lackOf common senseI was the good guyShe was the bad girlI'm thinking one girlShe thinking me, Earl James and JimmyYep she had plentyBut love for me, she didn't have any
I was inviting, her into my heartBut she was out riding in some other man's carShe was my night time, thought I was her starGuess I was wrong, but see I'm strongWon't take long for me to move on
Hook:Oh, please don't worry bout me I'm fine(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)Only gonna play the fool one time(Only gonna play the fool one time)Trust me when I sayThat I'll be okGo on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl
Verse 2:I can't get her back, butI don't want her back, IRealized that,She don't know how to actTried to settle down and look what I getThought it was my time, but I guess not yetShe at the bar getting drinks from many menI'm in the house, thinking she's with her girlfriendsJust not knowing, truly not knowingI look back now like, man, I was open
I was inviting, her into my heartBut she was out riding in some other man's carShe was my night time, thought I was her starGuess I was wrong, but see I'm strongWon't take long for me to move on
Hook:Oh, please don't worry bout me I'm fine(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)Only gonna play the fool one time(Only gonna play the fool one time)Trust me when I sayThat I'll be okGo on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl
BridgeOoh, the mistake I made is clear(We never should been together)That's the reason you're not here(I know that I can do much better)Not a single salty tearNot a feeling in my chestBaby I'm feeling no stressI'm too fly to be depressed
Go on GirlGo on Girl
Ooh...
Go on GirlGo on Girl
Ooh... oooohh
Ooh... ooooohh
Ooh... ooh
Hook:Please don't worry bout me I'm fine(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)Only gonna play the fool one time(Only gonna play the fool one time)Trust me when I sayThat I'll be okGo on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl
Ooh, please don't worry bout me I'm fine(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)Only gonna play the fool one time(Only gonna play the fool one time)Trust me when I sayThat I'll be okGo on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl(Go on girl)Go on girl
Go on girlGo on girlGo on girl
I'll be fine...

What a day !

Broke up with her at the first days, it's so hard to accept it that she is not in my life anymore .

really a failure in love, i did promise before i had to control myself that must give her freedom and

spaces but i just cant, those time i really wanted her to accompany me more . But end up she say

i'm annoying , that was hurt enough ! if she didn't do the things i don't like, i also don't need to be

that always moody ! always scared ! always want to say things to comfort me ! These is all just she

expect me to believe . But after she mix with another boy, she just said is BROTHER BROTHER !

after i know she mix with him , she changed , totally changed ! 3 times she said want to break with me ! haiz !

but gave me very unsafe, many time like that already but she just didn't take it seriously !

SWEATS !

I also don't want these to happen to us ! I thought that this girlfriend will pass 3 months, but no

she said i'm not her type, not the good looking boyfriend she wanted, but everytime i did it to

to improve myself, try and try an try to be the type she wanted, but i just don't have time !

Just because PMR made me no time to do all this things, haiz ~~~

IMPOSSIBLE ? just now saw she wrote, wow, almost cried !

first time so love a girl ,

first time so let a girl hurt ,

first time so let a girl so love her ,

first time fall in love ,

i just i don't have the LUCK to be with her , although i love her so much !

she won't think back for me or wanted this love anymore ,

only reason , i'm not her type !

haiz ~

i love her so much !

people say is not good i like that ,

i put a lot of effort on my exam .

but i just can't concentrate without her beside me supporting me by love !

i just love her !

love her with my whole heart .

the last time she told me she love me is at 20/9/08 5:45 !

hurt badly .

when i need her .

she totally not around !

haiz ~

this is all i deserve it .

totally ! but i cant accept it anymore . cause my heart cant take it anymore ! everything she does to me very hurt

but i can stand it when she's around ! but now . no more !

it's over ! everything ! i'm exhausted ! IMPOSSIBLE ! yeah , i think this is good for both of us !

love you so much !

you broke my heart !

you let go my love !

put away my care !

5/7/08 - ended 20/9/08

74days .

i really a failure boyfriend !