Too Simple

Too much things happening now.

Listening to those 10months ago songs.

Those feeling are undescribable,

Is like thousand of swords, penarate through my heart,

so pain so suffered,

who knows?

who cares?

Keep repeating those songs.

Read those letters.

10months to HY, became nothing,

end up i'm thinking of my .....

too pain, too confused.

who knows?

who cares?

They are good, happy together.

I'm sufferd, no one knows.

Even best friends, i myself cant maintain any of it, i'm admire my friend,

to whom are also okay with.

but me

dont deserve any of best friendship?

totally dont deserve any of love relationship.

i'm invincible to everyone.

even 10months, she also doesn't trust.

even i meant that introducing girls thing,

i still love you.

but.... not anymore?

who knows?

who cares?

Simple and Easy?

Why things can't be easy as abc?

It is so complicated.

i turn my back, and saw the things that will slash my heart deeply, it is so painful and hardly to describe how pain is it.

i turn my back, know that i had no more chance. no more confidence.

i turn my back, saw everything, it made me feel that, he is more safe to be with.

everytime i turn my back, i saw it, it made me turn moody, i very hate to be like that, is like i'm having something bad but no one knows.

Then my friends cheer me up in a Nasi Kandar shop, i only know that they both are very good friends.

Thanks to Pauline and Evon. After that i felt much better, even i saw it again, i still smile with it.

There is something bothering me, everytime you told me that you had nothing with him, i dont want to know anything, it is very hurting, everything because of your things, i turn blur in my world, i hate to have these kind of feeling, i love you, but nobody bothers.

It made me missed a lot of things, but why my mind keep repeating the same image during when i turn back.

Someone can tell me why are you so hard to forget?

Can i forget? So so so so long, how can i immediately forget everything, why i dont derserve to be have a long relationship? Or even one?

Can someone tell me? They told me i am quite good looking and said a lot of girls like me, i dont believe either of that is true, cause it doesn't have also. Neither evidence nor prove!

Word are down at 10:31

11 July 2009