Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Bad days ( i don't use blog say or scold ppl , dont misunderstand me ! )

First , i was wishing so hard that i can meet her in Saturday night ,
but i can't .
lol . ridiculous !
msg my friend ask whether can go or not
but end up
didn't reply .
fine then , she also didn't help me ask .
these days she changed ,
the way she chat , the way she act
totally changed !
now i only know that she and i are totally impossible to be together !
She gave me hope just don't want to lose a friend ?
or don't want to hurt me ?
i have no idea .
She asked me to do account for her
but she told a other four boys who are chasing her .
so got four accounts , lol , i don't want a toy le ... although i love you k ... ?
so i'm thinking that ,
why she still got so many ppl chasing her ? why she doesn't want to reject ?
lol , thinking a lot last night .
thought till late night ,
burning midnight oil ...
lucky tuition today didn't fall asleep ! hahaha ~

bad day for Monday !
yesterday ...
we agree to each another will go gurney
if got or not
also will tell
but end up
i waited her at gurney for just want she to send me a msg that she is not going or what
but didn't show up neither one msg ...
i was so frustrated till turn moody the whole night .
quarreled with mother ~
haiz ...
moody
very very very down ~
reading twilight but mummy say i'm sms with friends ~
made me very phe chek !!
lol ...
waited for so long .
chasing her for so long
didn't touched her at all ...
lol ...
appreciate ppl around .
don't regret after you had lost it !
in her irresponsible act
hurts me
break my heart !
this really a pain that you won't understand ~
let me think that she doesn't even care about me
i was laying on the bed .
thinking thinking thinking
waiting waiting waiting ~
end up ..
all the ppl i told too
don't even care !
no one care !
now i only realize this
i'm the only one who live in my own world
no one else will care !
i love to be moody
cause moody suits me !
the more happy am i
the deeper the hurt in my heart !

life's sucks
TOTALLY !!!!!

No comments: