24th Feb 2009

Jealousy makes people turn insane
Really having a bad time
maybe more then a bad day
my white pants got so black ink on it
*faint
washed myself
but why cant it just go away .
stupid black ink !!! :@



Say loving you
won't makes you touched
maybe i said at the wrong time ...
i realized that ....

Moody for some time
maybe now ....
but its okay ....



Msg to the person i loved
but she doesn't feel it ?
Yeah , i think she doesn't ...
Maybe ...
i guess ...
i hope i'm wrong ...



" Whatever "
do this word effect me a lot ? o.O
haiz ...
bad replied
people lost trust on me
why i cant just want to be with her ?
protect ? o.o
i think i can't
i'm also haven't met with her ... *sienz ...



Friends starting to say i'm becoming " EMO ? "
Ridiculous ...
NO WAY EMO ...
Gavin la ... * happy emo * FAINT !!!!
hahaha


ahhhh ....
drunk feels good ...
beers are nice ....
the bitterness
can describe my bitterness to love someone ?
lol
maybe ....


Everyday keeps dota
Everyday keeps study
to make myself numb
for not thinking another things


Yeah ....
Add Maths
you ain't so hard
i can do you ... >< * happy (after today's tuition , learned a lot )
having a competition (basketball) this Saturday
must jia you dy ...
hahahahaha ....

7:07pm
Mood :
Down and frustrated

Listening and Thinking

msging with HER till late night
sleep in class all day long
wow ...
sot jor ...
nothing to do ... *BORING
many days of reading non-fiction books *new moon*
haha i finish my twilight . *over the moon*
people always ask me
why you haven't change people to chase yet .
i said " Don't know ? "
haha actually is i still love her :S
ridiculous questions
haha ...
some people say
"Don't wait , wasting time "
"Haha , i don't care " i replied .
isssshhhh ~ why add maths is such a hard subject to learn
stupid !
One things i'm not satisfied with
IS ...
i'm not a very good in console ppl
wtf !

This is for real

A PAIN THAT YOU WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND !

Bad days ( i don't use blog say or scold ppl , dont misunderstand me ! )

First , i was wishing so hard that i can meet her in Saturday night ,
but i can't .
lol . ridiculous !
msg my friend ask whether can go or not
but end up
didn't reply .
fine then , she also didn't help me ask .
these days she changed ,
the way she chat , the way she act
totally changed !
now i only know that she and i are totally impossible to be together !
She gave me hope just don't want to lose a friend ?
or don't want to hurt me ?
i have no idea .
She asked me to do account for her
but she told a other four boys who are chasing her .
so got four accounts , lol , i don't want a toy le ... although i love you k ... ?
so i'm thinking that ,
why she still got so many ppl chasing her ? why she doesn't want to reject ?
lol , thinking a lot last night .
thought till late night ,
burning midnight oil ...
lucky tuition today didn't fall asleep ! hahaha ~

bad day for Monday !
yesterday ...
we agree to each another will go gurney
if got or not
also will tell
but end up
i waited her at gurney for just want she to send me a msg that she is not going or what
but didn't show up neither one msg ...
i was so frustrated till turn moody the whole night .
quarreled with mother ~
haiz ...
moody
very very very down ~
reading twilight but mummy say i'm sms with friends ~
made me very phe chek !!
lol ...
waited for so long .
chasing her for so long
didn't touched her at all ...
lol ...
appreciate ppl around .
don't regret after you had lost it !
in her irresponsible act
hurts me
break my heart !
this really a pain that you won't understand ~
let me think that she doesn't even care about me
i was laying on the bed .
thinking thinking thinking
waiting waiting waiting ~
end up ..
all the ppl i told too
don't even care !
no one care !
now i only realize this
i'm the only one who live in my own world
no one else will care !
i love to be moody
cause moody suits me !
the more happy am i
the deeper the hurt in my heart !

life's sucks
TOTALLY !!!!!

I missed her ...

She went to a party ,
my best friend had a performance that i can't attend to see either him or her .
She was enjoying very well , so i don't know what to say neither what to say or disturbing her ..
haiz ....
bad mood ...
moody ...
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i'm damn missing her !!!
but i ain't gonna tell her
let her enjoy the party .. without disturbing her ..
what to do ..
maybe this is the way of how i love ..
all about i think is her ..
hope to see her in Monday !!