Thinking ~ Wondering ~ Considering~

i'm thinking should i give up ?
i'm wondering should i give up ?
i'm considering should i give up ?

or just take it like it never happen before ?
no one to tell me ...
hmmm ....
be mature boy ...
think yourself ...

so my conclusion is ...
don't think
don't wonder
and
don't consider
is the best for me now ...
finding something to do
for me not to things so such ...
happy happy better ...

i hope i can ...
hahaha game and book are the most suitable choice for me ...
thanks to myself .. xD

Waiting Missing n Loving

After a bad relationship with her ,
lol , thinking of it ,
is like waiting for a IMPOSSIBLE love to happen ,
so after she is together with that GUY
make me think of giving up ,
i am telling myself ,
must be mature to accept
must be mature to be forgive and forget ,
well ,
i did ,
congrat myself .. = =
i told her many things that i will do after my PMR
stupid exam ...
i hate that so much ,
make me lost everything that i own ....
lol ,
hmmm ,
i dont care it anymore anyway ... haha
i told her ,
i was going to pierce ,
i was going to put bracers ,
i was going to buy new clothes ,
i was going to learn guitar ,
i was going to build myself ,
i was going to hang out more with her ...
but haven't reach PMR
she already left me .
after that i did concentrate at my exam
but i found ...
is already to late .
so i tried and tried ,
but not a good result i get
i cant get anything that i always wanted
but i gain family love n concern
well
isn't so bad

After 3 weeks of BAD MOOD n DEPRESSION
i think i dont believe in love stuff
so i give up love and live alone with computer ...
awww...
so lonely huh ,
hard time , hard feelings ,
i already have felt and pass it over
then i found a girl ...
many people said ,
she ain't very pretty ,
but after a few chats with her ...
i felt myself
something happened ,
none of this feeling happen before ,
something happen for first time
so deep inside
after that ,
i had a crush with her ,
miracle do happen ,
so i kept it deep inside ,
didn't speak to anyone ,
just tell myself to control myself ,
cause i don't want to be like last time,
i don't have the courage neither the confidence
i had been let people scolding me that i'm freaking annoying ,
i did try to walk away from this crush .
but
how hard i find
is just so hard to forget
is just so hard to give up
cause i know myself ain't a good-looking boy
so i did keep myself to that ...
after i saw a movie,
it let me think
nobody is perfect !
so this crush ,
is still here ,
but kept deep inside my heart ..
waiting and waiting and waiting ..
for some time
but now is already four months ...
unexpected huh
i also don't know what is happen to me ..
not the first time to love
but the first time so love
like i see another girls
i don't have any interest ...
but this is the happy part ...
one day
i saw a message that she said that my friends is kinda good looking
and she likes her or not ..
i was totally totally pissed off
so i think for awhile
since she got a starting at him
why not i try to pass him to her
but end up they didnt make it
so i also continue my love....
i told her how i felt
but time is still needed for herself
haiz ...
nevermind then
four months waiting
why not waiting for somemore time
i am here loving her
waiting one day she will realise how much i love her ...
i do hope i and her is more then ordinary friend ....
missing her ....